well, my dear, faithful, readers... when I say faithful, I mean it... if you're reading this now, either, you check my diary once in awhile, or you just look at your buddy list and thought "hey Pius updated"... there's some reader loyality in that... not a lot... but some...

I guess I'll update you on what's been happening and why I haven't updated.... well the reason I haven't been updating is because I wanted to write my last 10 entries on the last 10 days before I leave... so, I'll have a total of 400 entries when I leave, if I decide to continue to write in my diary, I will, if I don't, it'll be a great ending...

so, what's been going on with me? I've been changing my lifestyle... I try to run everyday... I do more errands, I'm trying not forget important things, I'm trying to stop procrastination... I'm packing right now, well my mom is... I have to throw away all my old crap that I've been keeping since I've had them... I now have a renewed interest in my old toys and magazines and cards.... all a waste of money... I was planning on a party for my birthday... but I don't know where to have it at... I need some place where there aren't a lot of people, some place kind of isolated where we can make as much noise as we want and do whatever we want... it's been more than a month since my computer broke... and fucking a, I need to get my wisdom teeth pulled, all of them... and I leave on the 19th... I'm so close to finishing my computer... I just need a heaksink and fan, which'll probably come in next week... shitty... my roommate's name is Jered John Connon... I think that's a weird name... hell, I wonder what he thought when he read Pius Chul Pack...

I kind of planned this out, I wanted to do something neat or interesting on the last 10 days, but the last day should be very interesting... I'm gonna end my diary the same way I started it...

anyway... I'm going to be cliche and say that I'm starting to feel anxious about leaving... I'm gonna be gone, somewhere else but home... things are gonna go to shit when I leave... since, you know, we're poor, my mom isn't gonna get as much money to live off of once I leave, so I'm worried about that... kind of like a rekindling of my purpose... to go to college, get a fucking education so I can make money.... I'm leaving a lot of my stuff behind, like my cds and crap... my movies and games... hell i can download them all over again on my college connection... so why bother...

well I hope you enjoyed this as much as I did, it's weird that I enjoyed writing in a diary... oh yeah, I was looking through my older diary entries, I used the same title for some of them... so I changed them...