something quite odd happened today... my neighbor's apartment got flooded... a pipe must have broken and started spraying hot water into her kitchen... wait, I fucking talked about this, this morning... I did some errands after that... and I watched Part 2 of the Godfather... good movie... so tomorrow I will watch part 3... my back is so itchy...

anyway... the burn on my elbow has pretty much healed... I just have a whole shit load of pussy, hmmm puss-ie? blisters... it's disgusting... by I can't stop staring at it... it's mesmorizing... I don't know... it's sickly looking though...

I'm sick of myself... I get so worked up over some girls.... for example, say I like this girl and she uses an instant messaging program... I can't wait till she comes on just so I can talk to her, when she does it's probably for just a bit... and we probably won't talk for long... it's stupid... same thing happened with this girl named Lizzie, it was just me thinking she liked me... I think out of all the girls I've ever liked in my life, only one girl liked me back... and I was an ass to her... I told her I didn't like her... I did, I just wasn't attracted anymore... you know that whole "you want what you can't have" dealie... maybe I should have stuck with it... maybe not... it doesn't really matter now... I am a sad little boy... I haven't had any kind of relationship with a girl that's more intimate than friendship...

it's nice getting messages... feedback, I suppose... my back is SO ITCHY

my friends and I are throwing a going away party for Jevon, Michael, and Jung... there's gonna be the booze and drugs... I don't know if I'm gonna do any... I'm probably gonna end up the only one sober, if I don't drink... I don't know why I don't want to do any of those things... I guess I just don't feel like it... I need to get a job, maybe I'll work at Longs or Times both super markets...

I wish I wrote more meaningful things