my life, a short lived paradox of memories and pain... it's like seeing in black and white... you know... sometimes I'm amazed at the crap I can make up... my life is one big joke... I've been depressed lately.. why? because I am a moron... I take things, things that probably don't even exist, too seriously... also besides the fact that I haven't been doing anything for the last couple days besides going to the beach yesterday...

like I told Kim and Kerin, I believe in God now... hear me out... the kind of pain and torture I am going through.. it's an act of God... no man would want to bestow upon me such itchiness and pain... God exists, and he hates me... with a vengance... look at the sea of blood and the swarm of locus...God can get pretty pissed... he's like "damn that Pius, his name is religious for Christ's sake, why won't he believe in me? Oh, don't worry... he'll soon be mine, MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH" I haven't been getting much sleep lately because of my sunburn... I think I slept about 3 hours today....

and just about an hour or so ago, my neighboor's sink started to spew out hot water flooding her apartment... it's pretty funny.. and bad at the same time... it's funny because she's standing there helpless, and when you're helping her, she's just talking on the phone... wait that's the bad part... it's funny because her apartment is flooded... I don't think many people have been in a flooded apartment, i bet it'd be fun to play around in... I was half worried about getting electrocuted...

so now I am almost tanned evenly, sorta... my front is a bit darker now... but my back is still red... oh well... life moves on... and all over me...