I don't know what to talk about... I could talk about my day, but that was pretty dull... I could talk about things going on, inner personal feelings, but that's all said and done... I could talk about masturbation... but that also gets trite...or I could just whine about starting my homework late.... once I figure out how to reencode mp3s to a lower bitrate I'm gonna start posting them up... however if you miss it one day it'll be too late, because I'm gonna have to delete that one to make room for the next one... if you want a better quality version just buy the fucking album and support the band.. hahah... or I could accept bribery or sexual favors(women only)... people I know... think I'm good at computers, I'm not... I can use it, but that's about it... I can't fix things, I can't program or anything... oh well... that is how life is..

life one big fuck up after another... why did I say that? I don't know it seemed angsty at the time, which was a couple seconds ago, but it sounds stupid now...

when I find out more people read my diary I feel more pressured to write something inspirational or deep or moving... and I feel like I let them down when I write stupid things like what I did and shit like that...

next week we have our senior field trip... I forgot to get my paper signed so I'm not going, it's at a water park... how I love those things... I only remember going to one or two on the mainland and me drowning at one of them... the other one was fun... I wish I could go to more... and I missed my chance... I didn't realize this until now, but I could just get all my teachers to sign my field trip form and not go on the field trip and cut class... kind of late to realize this...

I'm gonna see an indie film on wednesday with Yusef, called Pistol Opera... now who wouldn't want to see that? I just imagine "The Way of the Gun" combinded with "The Matrix" and "Heat" or some shit like that directed by John Woo...

my grandmother offered to buy me something... anything she could afford...I of course refused at first, but eventually gave in to her persuing... but I don't really know what I want... sure I want a whole shit load of things, but they're all over a hundred bucks... heh I just ask her to buy me a fight club poster... or a cup of ice cream... or a pair of game pads... so I could play mame games on my laptop in college... or a tv/dvd combo thing, but that's like 600 bucks, I might get that... but I'd rather have a computer with a dvd player, which I could get for 600... it wouldn't be great... but more practical than the tv/dvd...

I've been thinking... I'm gonna make my friends going away presents... but it's hard to think of things... like I know for michael I'm planning on drawing spider man beating up wolverine... I don't know what to do for jevon and for yusef I was thinking about buying him the donnie darko dvd, but I want to make something but I don't know what... and I'm wondering if I should get evan something... I will... I just haven't thought of anything... please help me... I need suggestions on what I should get from my grandmother and what to make for my friends.. hmm... maybe a bar of soap for yusef.. heh that'd be sweet... well I better start on my homework...

I remember when we first met, it was freshman summer, I can't forget... the day dreams of you and I... there's a place where I don't need to cry...and why can't I just let you go, I know I should... but I'm not sure I ever could...

Audio Karate - Rosemead